Subhuti was Buddha’s disciple. He was able to understand the potency of emptiness, the viewpoint that nothing exists except in its relationship of subjectivity and objectivity.
One day, Subhuti, in a mood of sublime emptiness, was sitting under a tree. Flowers began to fall about him.
“We are praising you for your discourse on emptiness”, the gods whispered to him.
“But I have not spoken of emptiness”, said Subhuti.
“You have not spoken of emptiness, we have not heard emptiness”, responded the gods. ”This is true emptiness”. And blossoms showered upon Subhuto as rain.
A question which often arises in the mind of the researcher is how to recognize the expressions of our Essence-Being when they arise. This takes the seeker to the often wrong attribution of many actions and emotions to their “True Self”, when they are only products of the mind which wants to keep alive its positions and strengthen convictions by denying any kind of change. Attributing to our Essence every action gives us two obstacles: on one hand, we remain deepened in the illusion of “Being”. On the other hand, this behavior allows our personality to keep alive all the conditionings, which imprison our True self.
Many Masters taught and still teach that we can recognize the expressions of our Essence-Being, all which is free from fears, anger, sense of guilt, egoistic thoughts. The legitimate question which arises in the mind of the practitioner is how to recognize the rare moments when he can be sure, without doubts, that he is witnessing the expression of his Essence.
Fortunately, this is not the main problem. Indeed, we can’t recognize such moments until we have achieved a higher state of consciousness and awareness. We must follow sincerely what we feel as right and true at a determined moment, accept it temporarily, and then, overcome it when we realize a “Higher Truth”. Briefly, we must train ourselves to discern what is part of the field of “Being” (True Self), and what is part of the field of “Appearances” (Ego-Personality).
Sincerely, we can’t be totally sure that what we feel, desire, or believe is free from every conditioning. The most important thing is to live coherently with what we sense, feel, and consider what represents us, and to maintain both heart and mind open to change the course each moment that we realize we have run up against a previously unseen conditioning. Of course, we are speaking here of what a seeker would have to do in the path for self-development.
The most important thing is to assume all the responsibilities for our actions and for our thoughts, and live with the utmost integrity. Moreover, despite of what we usually think, the fact that a tendency or behavior is assignable to our deepest Self, doesn’t necessarily mean that it’s correct and objective. This is something which should be considered.
The most important thing is to live our life in the most coherent and sincere way, so that we can achieve this state of emptiness, non-manifested, which represents us, instead of struggling with doubts about our False and True Self. Of course, this is only my subjective consideration, so take it in this way – subjectively.
In addition to a life lived more consciously, the practice of meditation is surely the most efficient medium to enter the deepest realm of ourselves and to recognize, field by field, what really represents us as part of our True Self and what represents the mere conditioned surface.