When speaking about a work on self- development which could bring us to a state of improved awareness, very often it happens that, even if we realize our state of “sleep”, we are unable to overcome this state or harmful emotions – our limitations. Then, in these moments, we ask ourselves why this happens, why all seems almost impossible, even if we have understood our condition? What is missing? Because, if we experience such limitations and remain unable to overcome them, some piece is missing, isn’t it?
We often affirm that we have understood, at least partially, the nature and reality of our illusions. Then, the realization of the “non-real” is fundamental, because realizing what is unreal immediately allows us the realization of what is its opposite – the “real”.
So, what is missing?
What is really difficult is to discern the intellectual from experiental understanding. It’s a very good thing to understand a concept intellectually, but it is far better to realize it through our direct experience, and willy- nilly, this is what is missing in all of us – experience.
“I know, it’s true, I understand, I agree…” but, have I realized this? Is it really my experience, or some external information i have accepted for this or that reason?
When we experience a deep perception of the “illusion”, we remain silent and dismayed, incredulous that we hadn’t noticed something so big, fundamental, incredible… and simple.
Unfortunately, this doesn’t happen in a natural way. To achieve this, we need accurate “knowing” to observe ourselves and life in general. We need some “tools” which could replace our eyes to “see” in a different way.
The desire and the observation would not be enough.
We also need a “mean” to enter deep into ourselves, behind the chaotic noise of our thoughts, which, in the East is called Meditation.
That’s what is missing – the experience of a dive into the depth of ourselves. An external verbal indication or belief can’t replace this. In fact, they remain without consistence just because they aren’t a result of a personal, individual experience, and this can happen only through an inner silence, free from our beliefs, points of view, and convictions, because, even in a path towards personal development, we build such convictions. Then, from this silence, we can move to a more sober and genuine observation.